Apr 10, 2017

Fill Me Up

During a moment of "loving on myself" last Wednesday night, I found myself opening another door to this self-care thing. It's become more simplified in a way that makes me laugh. It reminds me of one of things my best friend Dii and I often talk about. While there are parts of life that are complex, it doesn't have to be as complicated as we make it. What does that mean about self-care for me? Well, it means that:

self care is beginning to feel more like whatever nourishes my soul and makes me feel full. 

I've been taking more time to stop living in my head and imagining how I want my life to feel...how I want to feel. I've spent a lot of time wishing I could be free from insecurity, pushing other people away and much more when all I had to do was decide I didn't want to let these things consume me anymore. I had to consciously decide I want to lighten my load. Of course I've received a ton of help from God and close loved ones, but I still have to say, "I don't think I'll be leading with this today." That joy and peace I've been searching for all these years? Accessible. That feeling of love peeking through when I look in the mirror? Accessible. Feeling free from hurt that manifested itself physically? Accessible. That's not to say I'm magically immune to feeling negative things because I'm not. I'm not super woman and that's okay. The only difference is I now understand I'm allowed to feel whatever comes but I don't have to let it consume me and I can ask for help getting through the rough moments instead of closing myself completely off.

This particular chapter of my life is appreciated and I'm grateful I decided to listen to my inner G (God).
Outfit Details
1. Blue Moto Jacket x Zara (available in pink)
2. Frill Bardot Top x Missguided
3. Popper Pants (on sale!) x Missguided
4. Perspex Heels x LolaShoetique



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